射手壹 腳印微透明

 

這裏記錄著的是
一個已經達到幹物女邊緣狀態的
半宅女＋半剩女的生活＋工作，
同時還有她偶爾興起的自說自話。

P.S. 試聽音樂請耐心等待片刻，
理論上連接都有傚，我試過再放到網路上D :-)
   

我有一個QQ號碼，差不多6年前開始用的，那時我也會和網上不認識的人聊天，不過這種一時的興起隨著對這個世界更多更直白的瞭解，在那之後1年多就淡了。從05年開始這個號就不太用，直到去年朋友說道QQ遊戲，可以自己連線同別人玩80什麼的，於是我再次登陸QQ用來解解牌癮。
而作為即時聊天工具的QQ，曾經那些聊過的人、那些聊過的事，在系統重裝、更換電腦、人為刪除之後，都不留了……
今天，我突然接到一條短消息，很禮貌地問我是不是Z小姐，然後她說我是DHH的母親。這條短消息來得那麼突然，可是我一下子便記起誰是DHH。就在2小時前，小F跟我說她大學有個同學過得不好，我問為什麼，她說最近剛死了丈夫，因為是遺傳病，肚子裏懷上的孩子也打掉了。人生苦短，DHH我有印象，因為他跟我說他有心臟病，不能讀書，於是一邊生活一邊等死。我不太記得他的年齡、他來自什麼地方，但印象中，當時我們聊得還不錯，越是接近死亡，他很多事情比我看得真，不要問我是什麼事情，因為我現在根本任何印象都沒有了。
為什麼後來沒有聊了，而我現在根本沒有他的號，我也忘了究竟是怎麼回事。
這條短信我還保留在手機裏，下午把MSN的簽名改了，不知情的人搞笑地問我是不是失戀了。沒有戀，何來失啊？
D是否嘗試過戀愛的滋味？
那條消息我沒有回，沒有任何必要。只是：
我還記得你……不過我不敢打電話……就讓我一直以為你還在……
寫完日記，把短消息刪除，然後自己說7月7日晴。

科技文章

某天看電視時正好電影頻道有介紹，還滿有興趣，有身材爆好的JOLIE看嘛^_^這篇影評無疑是negative的，可就算你說抄襲、毫無想像力、打打殺殺、俗套又怎麼樣？本來，商業電影不會讓人有什麼深度思考的指望。在美女、暴力、謀殺中，just be relaxed！有機會我會看的，當然不排除在其上影之後的一兩年中……

一部喜劇、一杯熱茶、一場大雨、一個午後
還有Ray LaMontagne的till the sun turns black
還有……還有……

這些報道大概我們自己的媒體是不會說的吧……突然想起飛人前陣說他壓力大，確實是，too much attention，不過難道自己就不想要另外一個powerful drive？還是說已經賺得盆滿体溢了？呵呵，成了公衆人物出了名就會有壓力的～it's so ordinary

我要申請加薪！這日子沒有辦法過了……

本來還興衝衝關注汽車來，這下好了，又漲了……我是不是就該give up了？

Scientific Match- the science of LOVE...hav u ever thought of finding a partner [in Italian we say l'anima gemella] thru DNA?  If I tell u that now u can search out ur Mr./Ms.Right with the help of these agencies by providing just a sample of ur spit, how do u feel about it?  Will hav a try? aha...

Frankly speaking, I can't imagine how tremendously grieved my parents would be if they lost me.  After graduation from the university, the more independent I try to be, the more I feel the reliance they have with me.  "To lose a child is to lose everything or Chinese parents...A child is their only hope."  Will they survive from this spiritual catastrophe?  If the meaning of life is gone together with the hope extinguished...

那天小趙問我汶川地震捐了多少？
我很乾脆且實事求是地回答“2元！”
他捐了3K，我說可以給我買半個LV的包了……

汶川地震，我感到非常sorry，希望那裏的災民能有信心重新建造家園。
我在上海，遠水解決不了近火，就像我跟Henry說得那樣，真要幫忙，那乾脆坐飛機當志願者幫忙消毒焚屍！
我怎麼知道自己的捐的錢是不是真的被用作災區建設了？誰能保證沒掉進哪個貪X的口袋裏？
So, 2RMB is enough...

那麼多報導我就看了十幾分鐘，碰巧是在採訪自救後搭了臨時帳篷正在吃飯的一家人。

女主人就說：“一方有難，八方支援。不過我們還必須自己靠自己。總要活下去的，又不能老是靠別人！”
地震給我的另一個啟示就是：對自己好，享受生活。
咽氣的那一刻，還能微笑，讓自己覺得沒有白來這世上一遭。
據說臺灣地震後，餐飲業異常火爆。這說明了什麼？
Mariah Carey's BYE BYE
to express my deep sympathy to those victims and survivors.

 

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your hand to the sky ‘cause we will never say bye.

As a child there were them times
I didn’t get it but you kept me in line
I didn’t know I didn't show
Sometimes on sunday mornings
That I missed you
I'm glad we talked through
All them wrongful things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There’s so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“I wish I could try not to cry”
As time goes by
And as soon as you reach a better place
Still I’ll give the whole world to see your face
And if I get next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye bye bye bye bye, bye bye bye bye bye bye,
Bye bye bye bye bye bye, bye bye.

And you never got the chance to see how good I’ve done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It’s so hard to accept the fact you’re gone forever

Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“I wish I could try not to cry”
As time goes by
And soon as you reach the better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And if I get next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye, bye.

Bye bye bye bye bye bye, bye bye bye bye bye bye
Bye bye bye bye bye bye, bye bye.

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your hand to the sky ‘cause we will never say bye, bye.

Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“I wish I could try not to cry”
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And if i get next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye, bye.

Bye bye bye bye bye bye, bye bye bye bye bye bye
Bye bye bye bye bye bye, bye bye.
bye bye bye bye bye bye, bye bye bye bye bye bye
bye bye bye bye bye bye, bye bye.

*tuck sb. in 为某人盖好被子使其安睡（并将被边塞入被褥底下）